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Name: Jun
Location: San Francisco, California, United States
Birthday: 9/19/1983
Interests: Good stories... and cows.
Expertise: I can fix anything not broken
Occupation: Computer related
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1/17/2006
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| I've got my cousin interested in learning kung fu today when we were having family dim sum. I guess it's about time I go back too; he'd only go if I go.
This only means that I will have no free time whatsoever (Tues, Thurs, Fri 6-10 pm); damnit I just recently signed up for 24 hour fitness for 2 years (super discount price tho, 12$ a month)
I also don't know what is going to happen to my side stuff; it will be super slow progress. But it is fine I guess, that just makes me value my primary job more. I've already knew I have to go back to my sifu eventually; better sooner than later.
I need to give it my all for at least a full year - without distractions (girls). It's strange that I would go up to the park and practice on my own on some weekends; but what I've learned is so limited. I need to learn more.
On top of that, I will be taking classes to improve my drawing/painting skills at City College (with a friend; since he wants to take classes with me so much?). I want to take something fun and useful though; I already have enough "work" to do. I really have to get off my ass and learn how to be original in my drawings so I can create better assets for my business/video games.
I'll have to brush many things aside so I can gain more physical and mental power (yea, not strength, but power). This is by no means I will stop meeting new people or doing favors for friends. This just means my time will be very, very limited...
I am also officially shutting down Flashosophy.com as a business (too many bills, takes too much of my time, and 25$ a day of cashflow is not much of an asset), and with my spare time, I will be working on the "real" corporation my bro, our friend, and I started: Vitapoly
And as soon as March comes along, I will cash out my $250 American Express rewards and shut that credit card down. Instead, I will use 1 credit card; good o Visa.
My room is cleaned up very nicely and it shall remain neat. I even sorted my 10 feet wide closet: left side dark colors, right side bright colors.
See you all in a year or two, Xanganians.
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| I guess I can understand why some people in very poor 3rd world countries would want to end their lives; because they are ignorant about anything GOOD or worth living for. That can't be helped.
But for those people who are not in 3rd world countries, but quite advanced, such as S. Korea, Japan, some Europe, and USA, there isn't really an excuse for suicide. Suicide because you don't "fit in a certain group or society" is the worse excuse to kill yourself. Failed a very important exam which caused you to not be able to get into some nice school so you decide to jump off a building? Got fired/layed off from your job so you decide to get hit by a train? Got physically abused so you want to cut your wrists?
Every time I find someone who is suicidal, I want to yell at them one or many of the following:
Why does it matter so much if you don't fit in? Why would you want to be same as everyone else when you can be unique? If no one likes you because you're different, time to make some new friends elsewhere! Don't escape with suicide, escape the PLACE you're at instead!
Why does it matter so much if you suck at school? Find something you're good at instead of what you suck at. Einstein, along with lots of other smart asses suck at school. School is over-rated. You suck at it because you don't like it. You don't like it because it sucks! Find that something else that you ARE GOOD at and be the best at it! Why do something you don't like?
Fired or laid off from a job? That's a bummer but shit happens and it's NOT the end of the world; just an end of that job. Hell, even if it WAS the end of the world, I'd watch it to the very end instead of kill myself. I wouldn't mind watching a meteor crash into the Earth, which causes a massive shockwave of death across the world, which causes a tree or car to fly in my face sort of death. That sure is a lot more fun than killing myself. One job gone is another job gained. You just need to LOOK or RELOCATE. Or if you have some skills and some backup cash, buy some books for research and start your own business. If you had a job, then you must have had coworkers; you'd be surprised at how some people have many job opportunity hookups.
Spouse left you because you got laid off or something similar? Fuck that bastard/bitch, he/she was going to leave your ass anyway. What kind of husband/wife would leave you behind when you're in financial trouble? You're better off without him/her anyway. Slap yourself for marrying a dick/whore, then don't do the same mistake again. People learn from their mistakes all the time. The next relationship is usually always better than the last (because people naturally tend to be more careful the next time around)!
These social pressures are nothing but pressure! It doesn't physically exist! It can only hurt you mentally! All you have to do is not let it confuse you into hurting yourself!
At any rate, do you know how fucking expensive you are? Do you know how hard it is to make any part of your body? It would take tons of engineers of all sorts; mechanical, electrical, software, dynamics, physisists, materials, etc, and many YEARS to even create something like you? Sure, you might say cloning is an option, but you have to wait for it to grow; plus it is also super expensive. Sure, you might say, just make babies, that's easy enough. BUT NO, do you know that the chances of YOU existing is EXTREMELY RARE? From millions of years ago, when bacteria were available, to all those generations of evolution; all those wars your ancestors survived, just to make your fukin ass exist. By you READING this is already proof that you are VERY WELL off. Think about it, you have a freakin computer with INTERNET; and I bet it is not 56k slow modem speed. You are probably not starving right now. YOU CAN READ. Shit man, how lucky are you compared to the rest of the world?
So, if you know anyone who is suicidal, please YELL the shit out of them. Why would I yell instead of speak calmly you ask? Because that's how I show people that I care (apparently I don't yell much if any - there just wasn't ever much of a need..). If I was some psychiatrist that takes your $100 an hour, then I'd try to be calm and understanding so I can take forever to resolve your issues, which leads me to take more of your dough.
We are social creatures, and when we are in trouble, being social is the key to all problems. You can't leave a suicidal person alone; even if they tell you to. It's like when a girl tells you to leave because they're mad at you. They don't really want you to leave, they want you to comfort them and keep trying. They want you to hold them and not let go no matter how much they try to push you away. They just want you to show them that you care. Difference is, suicidal people are not mad at you, they are mad at the world.
But alas, you can't yell at everyone. For those who have been physically abused (raped..etc), I am speechless; but full of anger and hatred for the evil doers. To take advantage of another in such a terrifying manner for their own selfish curiosity/lust/ego (I left out needs because it is NOT a need) is unforgivable. To even witness such an act is unbarable. I'd have no regrets jumping into a 5 vs 1 fight in an attempt to save an innocent girl from such harassment and I am sure there are many guys who'd to the same. Unfortunately, there are just some horrible things that happen which couldn't be prevented. In such a case, I can only be silent, yet understanding; using body language instead of words (actions speak louder than words remember?). If you know anyone who has been abused, please be there for them 
Sometimes, you have to listen to what people are not saying.
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| I've been sleeping pretty late lately ~ 2 am ish.
You know the feeling you get when you go to work/school in the morning and you feel like shit because you haven't gotten enough sleep? Your skin starts to break down due to lack of healing time. The entire day is just unproductive and you just want to sleep all the time; ESPECIALLY right after lunch. Then you go home and shower and you're wide awake. Then this cycle of sleeping late and waking up early repeats.
OK this has to stop. I remember the time when it felt amazingly good when I get enough sleep. I would wake up naturally (without an alarm). Stay there with eyes open, looking out the window for a few minutes, breathing the nice morning air and feeling so well rested and awesome.
So, I've decided to give myself the 12 am curfew. Once it hits 12, everything stops. I'll plop down and just sleep on the spot. So please don't find it weird when I suddenly vanished right at 12, even if we are in the middle of a conversation.
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| Is such a good movie. It's a really really good movie actually. Low budget, made over 129 million from box office. It's about a poor Indian guy who got all the answers right in the game of "Who wants to be a millionaire?". Then he gets interrogated because they thought he cheated. He had to explain the life experiences he has had for each question that he got right. The story line is superb and the acting from the kids are very natural and genuine. It's not really about the game show but the lives of how the brothers grew up + love story.
It's REALLY GOOD! HIGHLY recommended.
Oh, I also recommend "Taken" for cheap action/suspense, its about a dad trying to get his kidnapped daughter back. Story is not even close to Slumdog Millionaire but its an easy to swallow action flick recommended only for the guys.
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| A female friend told me that girls go crazy on Valentines day. Maybe it's the expectations that they have from their significant other. Or perhaps, girls are more open to others before valentines. Is that true?
Anyway, two or three years ago, I went in to this chocolate store somewhere around UC Davis, and bought a white chocolate heart shaped container that has other hand picked chocolate in it (each sold separately). I wasn't with anyone at that time, but I bought it anyway because it was soooo cool looking (I'm a sucker for pretty and well crafted things if you haven't noticed already). I decided to get it for my mom.
* edit; after a bit of digging, i found the picture of the chocolate box!
How come mom's don't get anything on valentines? I think that's very true in first generations of families (not born in the US); they simply don't celebrate valentines. You know, when your parents are old, the only thing they take joy and can generate gossip from is from their kids. If you give something to your parents, they can brag about it to their friends and coworkers like so, "Bwahaha, my son gave me this cool ass heart shaped chocolate container that has special chocolate in it. It taste hella good cause it's milk chocolate mMMmt tasty. What did YOUR kids get you?". Or something to that extent.
I still remember the time when I was still in elementary school. There was a very pretty ring, 3 stones (small left, center big, small right), at a Chinatown stall on the streets for $7. I fell in love with the ring and wanted to get it for my mom. Back in those days my mom would work the entire day for a mere $10 (of course I didn't know those things back then). The $5 I had was saved up from new years money. I borrowed $2 from my brother and purchased the ring. My mom loved the ring so much; it was fake but it had a really good luster in the beginning. She still remembers that day today.
Just like how you treat your significant other, don't take your mom for granted. It's wrong to assume that they are "supposed" to do certain things for you. They do things for you because they love you. It's fun to return the love! It's not mother's day, but it's a perfect day for a surprise!
What should I get my mom this year? Hm...
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